Tuesday, May 29, 2012

~Do it Anyway~

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People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered' 
If you are kind people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
If you are successful you will win some false friends 
and some true enemies;
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
The good you do today, people will forget tomorrow;
Give the world the best you have, and it may NEVER be ENOUGH;

~Sweet Mother Teresa~
1910 - 1997

Saturday, May 26, 2012

~Happy Birthday Little Miss Sunshine!~

4 years ago today I delivered this precious little miracle, 9 weeks premature. We just didn't know what to expect when you're expecting. She was a mystery from the get go. 4 strong pounds & 11 small ounces is all she weighed, she almost fit in one hand. Everything about her was petite & powerful, for only being 4 pounds she was durable & easy to care for. She rarely fussed or made a peep, she was content & easy to please. She delighted us from the start, when I found out that we were having a girl I sobbed & cried out "God is good". God knows our hearts & gives us what we need...& heaven knows in a world of 3 rambunctious boys who NEVER stop...I prayed for a girl! God answered our prayers & gave us the sweetest little angel our eyes had ever laid upon. I have to say that she IS 3 boys in one little body! She keeps us hoppin, if there's ever a quiet moment in our house...
EVERYBODY will simultaneously say "WHERE'S JACKIE?!"
~Happy Birthday Sweet Little Miss Sunshine!~
We love you forever & always.

PS. Thank-you God for all of our answered prayers.

Friday, May 25, 2012

A Hunk, A Hunk a Burn'n Love!

Eat your hearts out ladies...
He's ALL mine!

 This is my little hunk a hunk a burn'n love! What he's cookin up in the kitchen is adorable perfection with a sprinkle of sweet lovin! This little man has such a sweet heart, he's my cute little helper bee in the kitchen. I am always greeted with an adorable smile & an offering of "Mommy can I help?" Yes my little sweetness pot pie, as long as you wash your little frog holding hands first. These are the most precious moments of my life...Slow down. Slow down & smell what is cooking in the kitchen. My heart hurts to think that this little man will one day be a grown man cooking for his wife & children...
Hopefully we'll be invited for a dinner or two...

PS. Thank-you God for precious moments such as these.
Love always,

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Fly Birdy Fly...

Oh how our hearts have sung a happy tune for this little Mother Robin & her three Chicks. It all began so unexpectedly when a little Mother Robin decided that our kitchen window would be the perfect peaceful place to build a nest & lay her beloved eggs. I thanked her immediately & asked God to bless her strenuous endeavor & to guide those Chicks to safety with his loving hands of grace. So began our little Spring love affair with a precious Mother Robin & her sweet little Chicks. Every day we admired & encouraged. There wasn't a moment in our home this Spring that we didn't forget to thank Mother Robin for all of her efforts for her babies to be. I believe that our love & encouragement did not go unnoticed, because every now & then we were honored with a sweet little melody. Thank-you Mother Robin...NOT ONCE did you EVER complain that the work load was more than you could bare, when your little babes hatched & ALL you did day in & day out was forage food for little babies whose mouths hung open in desperation waiting for your safe return. We prayed. We encouraged,
but above all we LOVED & love NEVER FAILS!

Our little Sonny sat looking out his bedroom window for an hour and a half watching this little baby fly for the first time. Sonny watched with such intensity that you could see his little heart bulging in his throat. He said "Mommy he's just a baby, he's too little to fly" I told him that right at this very moment that little Chick is having the biggest conversation with God of his little new life. We spoke about God's love & the voice within that says "you can do it" even when you think you can't. I told Sonny to pray for him with all of his love & all of his heart, Sonny agreed. Two minutes later that little baby Robin flew away into the rest of his life. At the very moment that this little Robin listened to the voice of God & had the courage to fly, Sonny cheered with such joy that I knew at that very moment faith had been born into his heart. Thank-you Mother Robin, you gave us so many precious gifts this Spring...
we will never forget you & your little precious babes.

PS. Thank-you God for your grace it is so perfect & so full.
Love forever,

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

~Thank-you Queen Victoria!~

 This past long weekend was spent doing so many fabulous activities that it felt extra long & the memories that were made & shared together will forever be engraved on our hearts. 
There was a moment during "shmarshmallow" roasting that we could all feel the presence of God resting his peace & love upon us. Thank-you Queen Victoria for the sleep in & the extra family time spent together. We had fires, roasted "shmarshmallows", listened to music, danced, visited with Grandma's & Poppa's & Auntie's & Cousins & marveled in God's perfect grace all weekend long...
we let the worries of the world melt away.
There is something so special about the love of cousins,
we had seven little people play merrily (for the most part)
together & it brought such joy into our hearts.
Here are a few stand out memories...
Our "Sweethearts"
Roasting "shmarshmallows"
The "Birfday Boy"
Me & my Miss's

Thank-you God for Cousins, 
please bless them all the days of their lives.
Thank-you Queen Victoria we enjoyed your special day thoroughly!

Friday, May 18, 2012

~Happy Birthday Nathan~

You are the very best,
that anyone could EVER have.
We are SO blessed to have you in our lives,
& I wouldn't have it any other way.
God is good...
I am not worthy...
You are far more than I prayed for...
as a young girl I would fantasize about the man 
that I would have in my life, 
you have exceeded my imagination 
& for this I will forever be grateful!
Thank-you Nathan for loving me like no other.
Today we honor you...
~Happy Birthday~
May all of your birthday wishes come true.

PS. Thank-you God for the love of my life.

This Moment

Joining Amanda & friends in  {this moment}

  A Friday ritual.

  capturing a moment from the week. 

A simple, special, extraordinary moment. 

A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.


Have a gorgeous weekend everyone!

PS. Thank-you God for our beautiful week.



Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Take a chance on me!

This is such a feel good video, 
it just never gets old...
Every time I watch this I get so veclemped!
Talk amongst yourselves...
Doesn't it just make you wanna run out
& adopt a pet...
or perhaps just donate???

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

A Very Busy Weekend in Pictures...

WOW...These were off the hook ridiculous!

Enjoying a snuggle with my little "Party Girl" at a Bridal Shower

Taking the time out of his busy day to slow down & read to a youngster

Planting a Cranberry Bush for little old me!

Bahama Mama's For the Mama's

Kicked back & Relaxed!

"Grills Dig Me"

Refreshing the gardens...

My little men hard at work...

Watering the flowers...

& being quite adorable while doing so

Getting our hands dirty...
Thank-you for all of your efforts to make the Women in your lives feel honored & loved this weekend. Each of you touched my heart & made me feel special. I felt truly blessed to have spent my time with all of you. The work that my Husband did this weekend to honor me was incredible! & having our boys help out turning gardens to wish me a happy mother's day...
What precious men I have in my life. God is good...Thank-you! Thank-you! Thank-you!

PS. Thank-you Lord for Mothers. All Mother's everywhere & a BIG Thank-you for Husbands & children & blessings &...
Love: Tanya

Saturday, May 12, 2012

~Happy Mother's Day~

With much love & adoration I write these simple words to you.
You have rocked & soothed my heart my entire life through.
You even had the courage to completely let me go...
& for this very reason my heart began to grow.
I could never be the woman who I am today,
if you did not go through your trials to forage & make a way.
I stand firmly on the ground,
from a small seed that you had planted...
God's grace has shown up, the gift of eternal life's been granted.
Everything you EVER did has carried me this far,
don't EVER underestimate the power of your heart.
I humbly say thank-you,
with forgiveness in my heart...
please join with me in eternity...
so we shall never part.

Happy Mothers Day Mom,
I will love you eternally.

PS. Thank-you God for my Mother

To Surrender or Not To Surrender?

butterfly, forest, mexico, monarch, national geographic, nature

Should I surrender?
Surrender what?
How do I surrender?
Is it good to surrender?
What is surrender?

Definition of Surrender:
  1. To relinquish possession or control of to another because of demand or compulsion.
  2. To give up in favor of another.
  3. To give up or give back (something that has been granted):
  4. To give up or abandon: surrender all hope.
  5. To give over or resign (oneself) to something, as to an emotion: surrendered himself to grief.  
  6. verb (used without object) to give oneself up, as into the power of another; submit or yield.

Surrendering for me is giving up control & living only for love, dying to the flesh & living in Christ.  The old me is slowly dying...Sometimes it can be quite painful. Most days it's invigorating to know that a new me is emerging. I really am in a cocoon like state slowly transforming...I will one day emerge into full bloom & become the "butterfly" I was created to be...This is when my eternal self, my true self will be full in Christ. Every day is a new day & each step I take, I am drawing closer to God. Living only for love is not as easy as you may think, it often hurts & it rarely makes sense in a world that quite often contradicts the true meaning of love. Love, the true measure of love is not totally valued here on earth or even completely understood for that matter. I believe that we are eternal beings & I also believe that we are here for the sole purpose to love & to be loved. Not an easy task when we are bombarded with "so much to do & so little time"...I don't believe those lies. I think we believe a lot of "things" that we just shouldn't believe. I don't think that we were ever born for the purposes that our world has conditioned us to believe we've been created for. I think that creation is always speaking to us, striving to converse with us...ask yourself these questions ~ Am I listening? ~ What is God speaking in my life? ~ Who is in control? ~ Do you think that you were born to bare the weight of this world alone? ~ 
One question that a great pastor asked us was ~ "If God created the universe...so vast & so infinite & thought of EVERY last detail from an atom to the cocooning of a butterfly...why wouldn't he also create a way for us to know & reach him?" Were we really created out of some sort of mathematical cosmic science concoction, explosion, star dust, big bang thinga magingy???...I'm no mathematical genius but the odds of that mathematical equation actually happening & creating the entire universe & EVERYTHING in it is absolutely IMPOSSIBLE! SO...I've just begun a journey to a place where I don't really know where I'm going to or where I'll end up...but my heart is alive & beating with a fervor that I have never felt before because for the first time in my life I am ALIVE really ALIVE...I guess that really is why they call it "born again" Jesus really does make your heart beat faster! All those questions above, only made me question everything else in my life...My heart knows the truth & the only answer as simple as it sounds is LOVE! & really it's the MOST complicated thing EVER. I choose surrender. Surrender is saying I'm not in control. I need help! I can't do this life deal alone! Why on earth would I be created to bare this burden of life alone??? 
OH what's that God?...I'm not alone???...you're with me 
EVERY step of the way???...you love me??? 
You died for my salvation???...You paid the price for my transgressions??? THANK-YOU! Of course you have a plan, you're the creator of the UNIVERSE!!! What kind of ego would think that the CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE doesn't have a plan for us??? 
No wait, God this is really the plan...oh it's not???...
how about this???...not that either huh?...
Oh YOU are in control...I keep forgetting, please forgive me. So daily I mess up & daily I am renewed by the spirit, refreshed in Christ to die another day.



Thursday, May 10, 2012

Grace & Forgiveness

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An Oprah "Full Circle Moment" took place in our home today.
My two older boys have a tumultuous relationship & have a difficult time finding common ground with each other. Some of the tension they face in their relationship is due to sibling jealousy. My younger boy easily expresses his emotions of joy, compassion, upsets etc. My older boy has a difficult time expressing himself freely, he has to work hard for everything in life...writing is difficult...reading is difficult...drawing is difficult...emotions are difficult. He watches his younger brother read with ease, write without straining, draw & color beautifully, express himself freely~ and he thinks to himself ~ why is it so easy for him & so hard for me??? Often times great offenses occur  due to this "Cain & Able" pairing in our home. Feelings are bruised & hearts get torn & stained with hurtful words. One just wants to be loved & accepted by his older brother, the other wishes so badly that life were as easy for him as the other makes it appear to be. How do you take two completely different human beings & make them see eye to eye? If you are reading this & have answers please share. This is the kind of stuff that can break families down. I pray all the time that the separation between them won't grow to be too great. I believe in love. I believe that love can heal their scarred hearts... A car door slams and a broken heart comes in the house. The anticipation of going to be your big brothers cheerleader on his big day are all but crushed with harsh words & ill tempered hands. Crying in his room, this is what he shared...
"my brother is mean to me and I cry over it and I go to my bedroom"
We spoke about how brave & healthy it is to help heal your heart by sharing your feelings & writing about them. We talked about Gods love for us & about forgiveness...We talked. He shared. We listened. He gave us a gift in his brokenness...we got to share our hurts & sorrows, we got to have an authentic parenting moment with him. Alone. Uninterrupted. God's beautiful & perfect grace showed up at just the right time, just like it always does and we marveled in it with him. We spoke about the power of prayer & forgiveness. He thanked his Daddy for taking him to run some simple errands & for his special treat. An older brother proudly came home from a successful karate class ~ waving his flashy yellow belt around ~ Sad little eyes reappeared reminded of the sting on his hand & the burn in his heart. I get a quiet moment alone with him after much praise over a job well done & tell him about a story that I had read earlier here about how “It’s not that you aren’t going to blow it. It’s what you do with it afterwards.” I tell him this & he asks me to call his little brother into the room & he softly whispers "I'm sorry I hurt you"...His little eyes look relieved & he whispers back "I forgive you"...they even hugged! Today we relished in God's sweet, beautiful, perfect grace & forgave each other for blowing it.

PS. Thank-you Father for forgiveness.

Monday, May 7, 2012

~ Words Unspoken ~

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You are the well from which 
I drink.
You are the dream from which 
I think.
You are the rock upon which 
I stand.
You are 
in control...
you have my hand.
Your will be done,
you are more than gold.
In you,
I shelter from the cold.
You will carry me,
when i fall down.
You will love me,
when others frown.
I will choose you,
every day.
I am yours, 
in every way.
Carry me,
when I am broken.
I love you lord,
in words unspoken.

PS. Thank-you for your Grace.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

This Week We...

Lived on the edge!

Got to hold a baby.

Flew some airplanes.

Made some new friends.

BBQ'D "Man Styles"
Roasted some marshmallows!

Listened to the sounds of nature.

Enjoyed some brotherly love.
Enjoyed a GORGEOUS Harbor bike ride.

Rode free of cares or worries.

Tyson said: Mom they should at least put signs outside saying there might be snakes out here!!! Like DUH???

Basically really enjoyed each others time & companionship

PS. Thank-you God for all of our many blessings!

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Favorite Things!

Again...NOT original! Super easy! Super fun!

Step 1) (like this is necessary!) Trace or freehand a favorite cartoon character. 

Step 2) (okay so I have nothing else to blog about today!) Cut out said cartoon character.

Step 3) (please don't judge me!) Glue said cartoon character on a Popsicle stick.

Step 4) (there really is no step four!) Enjoy the countless hours of fun with said cartoon character.

My children actually really enjoy these Popsicle stick characters. I make paper princesses or Luigi's for Jackie, my kids will play with these "guys" for hours (okay again...hours in a home filled with loud noise & hyperactivity is not realistic!) more like an hour! Give it a try, perhaps if there is anyone reading this blog aside from my good friend Krista you can share some of your fun creative ideas with me, or you can check out her wicked & fun crafty ideas...
I would love to hear from you! (you as well Krista!)

PS. Thank-you God for simplicity!

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

~ My Broken Crown ~

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I will remove the crown 
upon my head,
which I call ego.
I humbly place it at your feet,
without you Lord 
I am dead.
Fill my heart with your beauty.
I kneel 
before the cross,
broken & bruised.
Thanking Christ for his gift of life.
How does one ever say thank-you
for the gift of eternal life?
Who is worthy of such a gift?
Not I. Not I.
I will say it everyday,
I will sit in silence,
& I will pray.
You speak to me like the ocean,
I hear your voice...
so pure & true,
it sways in & out like a tide...
whispering softly...
I love you...
I love you...
I love you.
I whisper back...

PS. Thank-you Lord