Saturday, December 28, 2013

So This Is Christmas...

I'd like to find a way to opt out of Christmas. I LOVE Jesus a whole heap, but I somehow always walk away from all that's glittery & gold & festive feeling... Depressed! I think that we've made some serious errors in regards to welcoming the birth of our Lord & Savior by turning his birth into tinsel & presents. I feel we've removed ourselves from honouring that perfect Christ child who was born in a lowly stable, we've managed to cheapen His presence with "presents". I can't help but feel for all of the aching & the suffering in our world, during a time that supposedly should be filled to the brim with everything shiny & new. My heart bleeds for the sufferers. So when everyone's clinking their glasses of cheer, I go along for the ride, because Heaven forbid I dare speak of suffering during a time of "fun & festivities!" I don't dare be "The Debbie Downer" of the party.  But in all truth, that's where my heart is at. I watch the shopping insanity insue as soon as the Halloween goodies are off the shelves. I'm finding it difficult to convey to my children that our LORD was born with NOTHING & died with NOTHING, but yet we continue to fill stockings & wrap presents & over indulge. How do we justify ourselves in doing this? It just makes me feel awful for all the little ones who are starving for food, family, clothing & shelter. I need to seriously make some changes for next Christmas, but where do I begin when we have four young children & one on the way? I need for my children to know that consuming is not Christmas, that giving is Christmas. What can WE do as a FAMILY? How do I make this season fun & festive without the presents & how do I go about doing this without it upsetting my children? This will be my New Year's resolution this year. I will find the answers to these questions & I will keep you posted! I know that there is always a crack of light in the darkness, it is my mission to crack that light wide open and to shine it brightly on my Christmas conundrum!

Blessings & Love Friends!

Monday, November 11, 2013

Rememberence Day

Today is the day that we remember and give thanks & honor to those who walked through HELL to bring us home a small piece of HEAVEN to have here on earth. You sacrificed your very lives, your own freedom and said goodbye to your families. Thank you for my freedom of expression, religion, woman's rights, gay rights & every other right you believed in enough to fight for. We honor and love you. Thank you for your sacrifices they mean the world to us.

Peace & Blessings. My prayer is that we would stop the madness of war and learn to genuinely love & value all of God's children. 

Thursday, October 31, 2013

Halloween Fun!

To all my little Trick-or-Treater's have fun tonight & be safe!:)

Happy Halloween Friends!

Friday, October 4, 2013

~ This Moment ~

Inspired by Amanda to share with you {this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.

"When Two Become One"

Have a beautiful weekend:)

Love & Blessings Friends!

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

We're Expecting!

When we shared the news that we were expecting our fourth child, the news was received with mixed emotions. For some apparent reason and I have yet to figure it out, people seem to think that they have the right to tell you what's best for your life. Well you can imagine sharing the news of our fifth! A family of seven in today's world is almost unheard of, unless you're on a reality TV show or your Hubby's name is Bubba? (no offense intended to all of the Bubba's of the world!:)

Question #1) Was this planned?

Yes concerned citizen, predestined and planned by GOD before the beginning of time.

Question #2) Can you afford another child?

No you're totally right, we can't. We'll just have to sell one.

Question #3) How are you guys going to manage?

We never thought of that question Captain Helpful. I thought perhaps curling into a ball and crying would be helpful?

Question #4) Where are you going to put them all?

Wow this is a good one! I know in today's day and age sharing is unheard of, but we thought we'd give it a try!

Question #5) When is your Husband getting snipped?

Perhaps we're not finished? We thought we'd try for another straight away, just to shock the hell out of you:)

Some people make big plans for their lives and have it all slip through their fingers like grains of sand. Other's "plan" to have children and are barren. Some people have good paying jobs and some just don't. Some people are sadly addicted to crack and so are their babies. Some people have big hopes and dreams and plans for their future and their children's future and it's all crushed in an instant.

I don't plan. I know that sounds ludicrous, but it's true. I can't see tomorrow let alone 5 minutes from now. The day I gave my life to the Lord, is the day I stopped making "plans".

God has promised this to me;

If we really have concerns for another's well being, how about offering up our love and support? That's it. It's really very simple, put your own fears and concerns down and love and support the person you're worried for.

Today we are blessed to share the news with the world that we are expecting our FIFTH BABY!

Blessings & love!

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Taking Some Time Off:)

I'm taking some time off from my cyber world:) I need some time to replenish & rejuvenate my spirit and my posts! 

Be a blessing friends! ❤

Monday, August 12, 2013

Motivational Mondays

We've all been here haven't we? We've either been the scolder & the judger, or we've been on the receiving end of scolding & judgment haven't we?

It ain't pretty. Sometimes "our best" just doesn't seem to line up with the worlds outside version of who we "should be".

I'm here to say...

That's okay.

I'm not always going to make "the right" decision. I'm going to make mistakes along my bumpy path. I won't be able to change people's opinions, but I can choose to forgive others always. I will choose forgiveness when my feelings have been hurt. When others form their opinions of how I "should" live my life, or judge my decisions, that's okay. I know in my heart of hearts that Jesus is with me every bumpy step of the way, smoothing out the bumps with every step I take. I hear His beautiful words of grace leading me forward, telling me with every bumpy step I take; "do not worry"; "before the world judged you, I have been judged first." I choose to listen to his voice, it's not always easy, sometimes it's exhaustingly hard. We are constantly bombarded with judgement from even our closest loved ones; and that's okay. I take this judgement and I remember the words of my Saviour, calling me to lay my judgements down and to love others as myself. Since I loathe being judged; I will not judge others. 

There is a true sense of freedom in laying our judgements down and choosing to love and treat others as we would ourselves. 

I thank my kind Saviour for that well needed lesson, I'm reminded of it often. He calls me to see things as He sees things, I'm getting there. Slowly but surely I'm getting there, one bumpy baby step at a time.

Be kind. Lay your judgements down. Love one another.

Thank you Lord,
For your patient lessons of love.

Friday, August 9, 2013

~ This Moment ~

Inspired by Amanda to share with you {this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember

Be Blessed Friends!

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Embarrassing Moment #4!

Here we go again...

My little peanut of a girl is OBSESSED with how Jesus died. There's parts of my faith that I have trouble explaining in words that would help a four year old child understand the Cross & what it means. She's relentless with her gruelling questions and I always feel weird explaining something so complex to a small precious mind. Like I'm warping her innocence or something? But I've always stood by the theory that when you ask me a question, I will do my very best to answer it as truthfully & as graciously as I possibly can...

Entering Walmart on the busiest day in the universe;

"Mommy why did the people's kill Baby Jesus?"

"We'll talk about this later."

"But why Mommy? Why they hung him on the cross? Was God mad at him?"

Beginning to sweat as many eyes are glaring for an answer;

"We'll talk about this later, when we're not shopping in a VERY BUSY STORE."

"Mommy would you hang Baby Jesus on a cross?"

Ok now I'm like super uncomfortable;

"Jackie can you please stop saying that."

Whining and getting even louder;


Oh sweet Baby Jesus, please make this stop! Think of something Tanya. Think of something. ANYTHING!!!

"Oh Jackie look at this dress isn't it pretty?"


I'm in hell right now. Hell.

"No he's alive in our hearts. No I wouldn't kill him, I love and follow him. We love Baby Jesus!"

"I wouldn't kill Baby Jesus, cause he's just a baby and we don't kill babies cause that's not nice."

Oh heaven help me get the hell out of here!!!

I swear it felt like time had stopped & a crowd of on-lookers were glaring at us and I could feel the beads of sweat dripping from my forehead:)

For the record I love her questions and I love truth telling, just not in crowded places with a child who is whining louder than an ambulance siren, demanding to know EVERYTHING about the death of my Lord & Saviour!


Saturday, August 3, 2013

~ This Moment ~

Inspired by Amanda to share with you {this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember. 

Be Blessed Friends!

Friday, August 2, 2013

Right now...

Inspired by Amanda to share with you Right Now...

I'm soaking up every fibre of my surroundings. I'm feeling grateful that my children got to live out in the wilderness for an entire week. I'm filled with a sense of peace that only God & His nature can fill me to the brim with. I'm listening to the birds chirping and the leaves rustling and I am thankful!:)

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Camping Highlights...

Our camp site

Our gorgeous view!


My best boys...

Sauble Falls

"Grills dig him";)

Building castles in the sand...

A little sleeping Beach Bum!

Who would've thunk it?... 

I actually LOVE camping:)

Friday, July 26, 2013

~ This Moment ~

Inspired by Amanda to share with you {this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember. 

Be blessed friends:)

Thursday, July 25, 2013

Monday, July 22, 2013

Embarrassing Moment #3

So to continue on with "embarrassing moments" here's #3!

I was always so impressed with my children when they were just a little bunch! I had four children who were ages 5, 3, 14 months & bran spankin new! We would ALWAYS get your typical comments like; "WOW you've got your hands full!" or, "WOW how do you do it?!" I guess once it's done it's done, it can never be undone! So not once did we ever sit back and say "how do we do it?" We would just lean back at the end of a long day & say thank God it's done! 

One of the strategies to see us through our days would be frequenting our local play group, The Ontario Early Years Centre was our saving grace throughout those first chaotic years. Every morning we would go for circle time, do some crafts and then wash our hands for lunch. My little ones always waited every so patiently in the big long line up to wash their precious little hands. On this one occasion; my 5 & 3 year old were the last ones to get to their seats. My 5 year old scanned the table & sat himself in 1 of the 2 remaining chairs. My 3 year old was left with the only remaining available seat. This was all fine and well, except sadly this seat was the last seat to be chosen for a reason...The lovely & kind woman of disability was sitting next to the empty chair. I am desperately trying to write this out as graciously as I possibly can, please bare with me:) Now my children had NEVER in the past made any rude or derogatory comments pertaining to disability, only simple questions that I would answer, always finishing with something like; "life is challenging when you're healthy and strong, so it's important that we as healthy & strong people are kind and compassionate & helpful to those who may struggle with disability." We'd had this talk many, many times! Having said that this chair remained empty because...she sadly smelled of urine.) There's no two ways around it. Urine. My 3 year old scanning the table with desperate eyes to find another seat, collapsed his little shoulders, sighed heavily and said of course really loud; (I swear this happened in slow motion) 
Well, while I can appreciate the candour of a 3 year old child, there are ways in which we tell our truths without the use of machine guns. I just stood there shell shocked! What does one do or say in a moment like that? Embarrassing!

Friday, July 19, 2013

~ This Moment ~

Inspired by Amanda to share with you {this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember. 

Enjoy your weekend friends!:)

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Summer Moments

Here's a few stand out moments of my little flock;) We're in an awesome heat wave right now, how are you beating the heat?

Stay cool friends!:)

Monday, July 15, 2013

Embarrassing Moment #2

So as I said before, I am doing a series of posts dedicated to our "stand out" embarrassing moments of parenting during the past 10 years.

Here's #2!

I'll set the seen for you;

It looked a lot like this picture right here. Yes it was Sunday morning at Church. Sunday mornings are my most favourite and my least favourite day all wrapped up in one! I love Sundays because I love Church and I LOVE to worship The Lord. I hate Sundays because I have to prepare 4 whining, resentful, ungrateful children to wake up early so that I can go love The Lord. They don't feel the same way as I do about Church. Of course they don't, they're just kids! So after a sweaty hot battle of ingratitude we finally arrive to the place where I feel most at home, Church. We file our cute "Little Ducklings" all in a row and enter our room of worship. My sweet little babes all nestle into their seats ever so politely. Every now and again I would open one eye while loving The Lord with all of my heart, to make sure that my "Little Angels" were still sitting nicely. Low and behold I cracked an eyelid to see my then 3 year old boy, with his PANTS DOWN pretending to PEE on the people in front of us!!! "Oh Lord Jesus!" I cried out, grabbed a hold of my Little Monkey & fled for the doors, as he's kicking and flailing his legs, I was trying desperately to get his pants up before anyone noticed! I shot straight for the bathroom to give him a good talking to, one lady in  the washroom who was primping herself in the mirror & eavesdropping to my scolding kindly said; "pull down his pants and spank him! he'll think twice before he ever pulls 'em down again at church!" Thank you kind lady! Yeah kids & church! You gotta love'em! 

Friday, July 12, 2013

~ This Moment ~

Inspired by Amanda to share with you {this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember. 

"Dress up at Gramma's"

Have a wonderful weekend friends!

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Gideon The Brave?

I have been fixated on the bible story of Gideon; Judges 6-8. I can really connect to Gideon's character, I feel this connection to him because like him, I too often feel "less than." Here was a simple man who felt "the least" of his people & with God's glory and might, Gideon won an impossible battle with a small army of 300 men! Gideon listened to God and believed that God would keep His promise to deliver Gideon and his army to victory. God always amazes & surprises me; I was in the car with the little ones & I went into a big long production about Gideon, I told the kiddies that if we listen to God and follow his direction we will ALWAYS be victorious! With God we NEVER have to live in a state of worry or fear. So here I am telling this story, secretly freaking out that I am going to be leading my first ever Sunday school class. I was nervous & felt unprepared, like Gideon I also felt "the least" of my people and not at all capable  of leading a class. I hadn't heard what the topic for this upcoming class would be and I was feeling nervous that I may not know the biblical character well enough to conduct a 2 hour class on the subject. Low and behold the call comes in and I'm informed that we will be discussing Gideon! Lesson learned, if God goes before me he will ALWAYS lead me to victory EVERY time without fail! I have prepared for my upcoming class and I know it's sure to be a success with God's help! Just keep believing, just keep believing, just keep believing! It amazes my imperfect self that I am having a REAL relationship with our Creator! Every single day I say "Lord I believe you are who you say you are" and every single day He reveals Himself to me, filling me with His hope & peace.

Thank you Lord, for the truth of your word!

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Embarrassing Moment #1

I will be posting a series of embarrassing moments that we've experienced over the past 10 years of parenting. 

This is the first of MANY...

It was Christmas Eve, my then 5 year old & 3 year old had helped me do some baking to wrap up into small gift bags that we were going to hand deliver to our neighbours. We set out with our gifts in hand and our first stop to be made was to our sweet elderly neighbour, Irene. The boys eagerly climbed the steps of the front porch feeling proud that they were doing something so grown up by themselves, while I waited below. Irene opened her front door and was overcome with gratitude at the boys sweet offering of love. I stood there beaming with a sense of pride at how adorable and gracious my two precious boys were being. Irene then asked the boys if they would like to come inside for a visit? (This is when I secretly thanked Sweet Baby Jesus, that she was hearing impaired!) My then 5 year old said "no thank you, your house smells bad." Oh how The Lord keeps our prideful hearts ever so humble!

Monday, July 8, 2013

The Giving Tree

Cover depicting the tree giving away an appleDo you remember this classic children's book?

I read this to my kiddies all the time, they get a kick out of watching me cry EVERY single time I read the ending.

This was the very first book I fell in love with. This book taught me what unconditional love looks like.

If you've never had the chance to read it, put it on your must read list. It's a beautiful book about a tree who loves a boy. She willingly and selflessly gives the boy everything she has and is, because she loves him. It's a very simple read for children of all ages. It's a timeless classic and a must read!

Friday, July 5, 2013

~ These Moments ~

Inspired by Amanda to share with you {this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember. 

Have a beautiful weekend friends!

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Your Word Is A Lamp...

Footprints In The Sand...
One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with
the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in
the sand:
One belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him
he looked back, at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life
there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
and saddest times of his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the
LORD about it:
"LORD you said that once I decided to follow
you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when I needed you most
you would leave me."
The LORD replied:
"My Son, My precious child, I love you and I
would never leave you,
During the times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints, it was then
that I carried you."
Author ~ Ella Scharring-Hausen ~
I can't even read this poem aloud without crying:)
Psalms 119:105 - Your word is a lamp unto my feet and a light for my path.
That's the word of the week, in this house.
The truth of His word is eternal and good.
The truth of His word shall carry us through.
When we grow weary and weak,
our hearts will cling to the truth of His word.
Enrich your life with the truth of His word & Be blessed!

Monday, July 1, 2013

O Canada!


O Canada! Our home and native land
True patriot love in all thy sons command.
With glowing hearts we see thee rise
The true north, strong and free
From far and wide, O Canada
We stand on guard for thee.
God keep our land glorious and free
O Canada! We stand on guard for thee
O Canada! We stand on guard for thee.

O Canada! Terre de nos aieux
Ton front est ceint de fleurons glorieux!
Car ton bras sait porter l'épée
Il sait porter la croix!
Ton histoire est une épopée
Des plus brilliants exploix.
Et ta valeur, de foi trempée
Protégera nos foyers et nos droits
Protégera nos foyers et nos droits.

Happy Canada Day!

Peace & Love.