Saturday, April 27, 2013

Guest Post - Rotten Queer Christian!!!

I have been reading this very poignant blog for quite some time now. I am SO excited because this will be my very first Guest Post! I love it when two mismatched odd balls from opposite ends of the spectrum find common ground through their passion and love for Jesus. AMAZING. THRILLING. This is the kind of scandalous stuff my heart leaps for! Nothing excites me more than finding love in uncommon and unlikely places. That's when you know God's working His amazing magic in your life and heart, when you find something wonderful where you'd least expect it. That's why I love our Creator so much, He has such an array of talented Children and this my friends is one of His many gifted Children;

How a straight Christian should approach a homosexual

It should go something along the lines like this:

"I was always taught to believe homosexuality was wrong because of what the Bible says. I'll be honest in saying that because it personally doesn't affect me, I haven't looked closely at how some Scriptures have been interpreted in the way they have. If you believe the Bible or not I'm still obligated to love you as myself because Jesus commanded me to. I can't deny you marriage because I won't deny it for myself. I won't defame you with using terms like "lifestyle" or "agenda" or use words to demean you because it's un-Christ like for me to speak to you that way, again, that's not loving you as myself. The truth is the Church has gone way overboard with homosexuality and it should repent of that. I know I don't have such a strong reaction to someone who's divorced or living a life God wouldn't be happy with, so maybe I do have a bias I'm not facing. I want to be like my Savior more and more everyday and that can only happen if I repent of how I've been with this."

You can read an eclectic variety of his talented writings on the above link. I love his perspective and his love for my Savior and I know you will too!
Thank-you Lord for my Brother in Christ; and Thank-you to him for being brave enough to speak his truth in love.

Friday, April 26, 2013

Movie Review!

The Machine Gun Preacher!!!


How does one even begin to describe a movie such as this?, I'll try but I might not do it justice...
This is an inspirational movie based on the life of Sam Childers, a hopeless drug dealing criminal who finds his Salvation through Jesus Christ and begins his amazing ministry. Sam shows us the magnificent love and courage that only God can fill the human spirit with, so much so that Sam follows his heart and finds his Ministry in Sudan. While in Sudan his calling is to save hundreds of kidnapped and orphaned children. Sam takes us on his amazing journey of love and self sacrifice, a calling that can only be from The Great I Am. This movie is sure to fill you up to overflowing! Thank-you to Sam for his AMAZING testimony of God's incredible LOVE for ALL of His children.

~Violence, Adult Content & Course Language~

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Jeremiah 29:11

Jeremiah 29:11 
This is a verse that I have been praying and saying over & over.
The truth of His word is taking root & going down deep.

His love is rich & plentiful,
there is more than enough for all who seek.
He wants to LAVISH His love on us.

I am a seeker of His truth.
He is revealing Himself to me daily.
I am in LOVE with the Great I AM.

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Rise and Shine

         I think that this is what we look like to God. We are this unique. We are this special. We are this beautiful. We are this precious. We are this sacred. God is ALWAYS working on our hearts, shaping them into His likeness.

This is what I opened my Bible to this morning;

Lamentations 3:22

Remember my affliction
and my wanderings,
the wormwood and the gall!
My soul continually remembers it
and is bowed down within me.
But this I call to mind,
and therefore I have hope:

The steadfast love of the LORD
never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
The LORD is my portion,"
says my soul,
therefore I will hope in him."

The LORD is good to those who
wait for him,
to the soul who seeks him.
It is good that one should
wait quietly
for the salvation of the LORD.

Rise and shine this morning friends, God is with you!

Monday, April 22, 2013

Be Brave, Be Open

 Im a Christian and would NEVER shun a homosexual. I know its not my job to judge. Its my job to love people unconditionally.
      I'm new to Church. I am new to Christ. I am sure that there are many "mature Christians" who would love the opportunity to lovingly shake me and say "WAKE UP, the Bible tells us that homosexuality is SIN!" I don't read the same message in the bible that those well meaning "God Fearing Christians" read. I read a Bible that tells me that I was once a massive, ignorant SINNER and that so is EVERYONE else. I read about the LOVE and the amazing plan that was put in place to SAVE us ALL from our sinful ways. I read about REDEMPTION!
I read about GRACE.

A GRACE that is BIGGER than ANYTHING we can EVER imagine. I read about a WILD, SCANDALOUS LOVE, that ONE MAN has for us ALL! Is this the same message of the gospel that you read? I can't even begin to tell you, how unworthy that kind of LOVE makes me feel. YOU DIED FOR ME? YOU DID THAT FOR ME? There's NOTHING that I could EVER do to DESERVE that. It is a GIFT that is so GRACIOUSLY given, for FREE to EVERYONE
who will listen and BELIEVE. This gift alone is enough for me to walk humbly with Jesus. He is teaching me about LOVE and how BIG and WIDE and DEEP that LOVE is.

I believe that humanity is filled with good intentions. I believe that a lot of what we believe has been indoctrinated into our belief systems and whether we believe these things or not, has absolutely NO baring on the security of our Salvation or the LOVE that God has for us ALL. I believe that these beliefs can HINDER so many from hearing about the AMAZING LOVE that God has for ALL of His children. I believe that EVERY man, woman and child is entitled to the LOVE that Jesus has poured out for ALL. How on earth can the "good news" of the gospel be shared if we bring the news in judgement and not in love? How can we share our own salvation with others, if all we share is the crystal clean version of who we are? The reality is that our lives are MESSY and GRIMY and PAINFUL and COMPLICATED, isn't this why we ALL NEED a SAVIOR?

But most of all,

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Inspirational Sundays...

Heart Sea Arch, Portugal 

Today's Sermon was;

1 Corinthians:13

IF I HAD the gift of being able to speak in other languages without learning them, and could speak in every language there is in all of heaven and earth, but didn't love others, I would only be making noise.
If I had the gift of prophecy and knew all about what is going to happen in the future, knew everything about everything, but didn't love others, what good would it do?
Even if I had the gift of faith so that I could speak to a mountain and make it move, I would still be worth nothing at all without love. If I gave everything I have to poor people, and if I were burned alive for preaching the Gospel but didn't l love others, it would be of no value whatever.
  Love is very patient and kind, never jealous or envious, never boastful or proud, never haughty or selfish or rude. Love does not demand its own way. It is not irritable or touchy. It does not hold grudges and will hardly even notice when others do it wrong. It is never glad about injustice, but rejoices whenever truth wins out. If you love someone you will be loyal to him no matter what the cost. You will always believe in him, always expect the best of him, and always stand your ground in defending him. Love always protects, love always persists, love always perseveres. Love NEVER fails!

Our Pastor said; "I don't care what race, religion or creed you come from, this passage can change every heart on the face of this earth, it will revolutionize your life."

I have to tell you that this was the first scripture that spoke truth into my heart. This scripture is an AMAZING measuring stick for my heart.

How do you measure your heart?

I think we all need a Gage of some sort, what are some ways that you keep stock & take inventory of your heart?

This is one way I keep inventory, I line my heart up with the truth of this scripture everyday. This scripture apart from God, is NOT doable for me. I NEED God to help me with this. I RELY on God's help with this.

When I read this scripture, why do I feel the compulsive need to bake a goody for my ailing elderly neighbor? This scripture challenges me to love deeper and wider than I have ever loved before.

This is Revolutionary! This is life changing, if we allow this to grasp our hearts fully and deeply. I don't want to be a selfish resounding CLANG! I want to FILL that clang up with His perfect LOVE. I want to go bake that goody for my ailing elderly neighbor! I want to pray for His hope and His peace to fall on the shoulders of ailing family members and friends who are suffering. I want to hold my babies and squeeze them so tight, their little eyeballs pop out of their heads (okay maybe not that tight!) I want to tell them just how precious and beautiful they are to me and to God who loves them SO very much! Love is THE only thing that FILLS me up completely and anything apart from that LOVE is really very ho hum to me. I don't really care if somebody has an extensive education or has incredible accolades of one kind or another, I actually really don't care about those things at all. They just don't excite me. I do get super excited when I hear about a small random act of kindness or a big initiative to help somebody who needs helping. EXCITING. That's the kind of stuff that really floats my boat. Everything else, is ho hum. I get excited when my kids share, without being reminded to. I  give standing ovations for organizations who take a stand for the well being of others. I rejoice when love wins, I soar when kindness prevails. I LOVE LOVE.

This is just the sweetest little video clip,
this is the stuff that really REVS me up;


Be Blessed my Friends,
the sun is shining and birdies are chirping!

Friday, April 19, 2013

I Spy Wiff My Little Eye...

Playing I spy with William;

I spy wiff my little eyeeee....
somfing what is colorful....

I have to write these things down (or type these things out) so I'll never forget just how unbelievably adorable they are!

When I'm so busy with the every day, it's way too easy for me to forget the good moments in the midst of chaos. It's important for me to take a moment out of my busyness & chaos to stop, have a chuckle & then REMEMBER to write down that one moment out of the day. That one moment that tells me the truth about my life. That single moment that says to me; you're doing just fine.

Thank-you for moments such as these...

Have a blessed weekend friends!

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

What Does God Look Like Mommy?

We're reading a great book in my small Church group called Crazy Love and one of the questions that Francis Chan (Author of the book) had asked us was; Do you have an image of God in your mind while you pray?

What a great question, I had never put an image of God in my mind while praying. Francis says that while he is praying he imagines Paul's interpretation of what God looks like; Paul tells us that God in all His glory is a magnificent being, clothed in beautiful jewels of every color, surrounded by thunder, fire and angels. Now this image (for me) is not very approachable. If I were to pray with this image in my mind, I would be tongue tied.

Tyson had asked me this question quite a while ago and my little Sonny Man answered it so very beautifully;

 Tyson: What does God look like Mommy?

Sonny: He looks like the stars in the sky, he looks like you & me & mommy & daddy & the trees & the sun & the moon.

Tyson: Where does he live?

Sonny: In your heart.

God you truly are a marvelous mystery!

You are a marvelous mystery!

Monday, April 15, 2013

Motivational Monday....


This is me Tanya (the helpless little kitten) This is Him (Jesus) extending His hand of Grace to pull me out of the rut that I have been in for quite some time now. This is what Grace looks like. It's reaching out, putting yourself in harms way to save another, no matter the cost. This Grace was extended to me when I found Salvation in Him. This same Grace is extended when I become lost, overwhelmed and confused. I'm gonna grab that Grace, not let it go in vain and hold on to it with every ounce of hope & faith I can possibly muster up. I will take the hand of the one who paid it all. I will TRUST & BELIEVE that EVERYTHING in my life is going to work out according to His will & purposes for my life. Thank-you Lord for always meeting me when I need you the most. It CANNOT be done alone, this is why the "thorn in my flesh" exists, it is a constant reminder of why I NEED a SAVIOR.

Sunday, April 14, 2013

The Faith Of Abraham

Leap of faith 

This is what I read in Church this morning,

Romans 4

Abraham was, humanly speaking, the founder of our Jewish nation. What did he discover about being made right with God? If his good deeds had made him acceptable to God, he would have had something to boast about. But that was not God's way. For the Scriptures tell us, "Abraham believed God, and God counted him as righteous because of his faith."
  When people work, their wages are not a gift, but something they have earned. But people are counted as righteous, not because of their faith in God who forgives sinners. David also spoke of this when he described the happiness of those who are declared righteous without working for it:

"Oh, what joy for those
  whose disobedience is forgiven,
  whose sins are put out of sight.
Yes, what joy for those
  whose record the Lord has cleared of

I have been feeling lousy about my life lately. Confessing this as a Believer in Christ, really doesn't line up with who I am in Him. But it's the truth & speaking truth out loud, can set us free. My truth is that since the tender age of thirteen I have struggled with alcoholism. My name is Tanya & I am an alcoholic. This may shock some of my readers, as some of my readers are close friends & family members. I NEVER talk about this struggle, EVER. I keep it locked away in a very dark place inside of my heart, where it burns & brings me to shame and tears. I want to be NORMAL. I don't want this inside raging battle. God is showing me that this IS my CROSS to bare. The only way that this deep wound will heal, is for me to TRUST Him and set it free. I will take a small step in FAITH, pick up my VERY heavy Cross & TRUST that God IS working in and through my life. When alcohol rears it's ugly head in my life, I get lost and consumed in it. I am a very good hider. I have concealed this secret for a very long time and this time I will listen to God and obey what He is speaking in my life, it is time to set this secret free. I must TRUST Him and put this in the light so that I may be healed.

There are no good works that I can do to gain the love that He has already poured out for me. I will speak the truth, put all darkness into His light and He shall set me free and finally heal what is so very broken. The veil is gone. The shame is undone. I am FREE. I will TRUST. I will HOPE. I will have FAITH. He will do ALL that He has promised. I will BELIEVE.

Thank-you Lord,


Friday, April 12, 2013

April Showers Bring May Flowers!

    William (just turned six);
"Mama, did you know that April showers bring May flowers?"
Me; "Yes William, I did know that"
William; "I just learnded that today, I thought that it was just a saying, 
but it's really true, April showers really do bring May flowers! 
Isn't that just AMAZING Mama?!"

You are AMAZING William!

Friday, April 5, 2013

Life Of PI...

Movie Review!


A young boy named PI takes us on a magical adventure of courage and hope. Losing everything, PI shows us how triumphant the human spirit is. This movie is breathtaking to watch, the visual graphics and special effects are mesmerizing. From beginning to end I was captivated by the beauty and magnificence of this mystical story. This adventure is sure to be a family favorite, it's definitely on our faves list. I would recommend this for ages 10 & up, as there are some graphic scenes that might frighten younger viewers. Having said that, it's my 4 year old Daughter's favorite movie!

Thursday, April 4, 2013

A Carpenter Told Me A Story Once & I Believed EVERYTHING He Told Me...

So 2000 some odd years ago, a humble man, a carpenter no less, came to disclaim the well dressed "religious teachers" of that time. This amazing "nobody", proved to his followers that the qualified "teachers" had nothing but venom in their own hearts. We can spew off every single scripture that may "oppose" gay marriage, or call homosexuality "sin", my question is this ~ What does this have to do with loving Jesus with our whole hearts? Everything that Jesus was crucified for is being mocked when we battle out the holy scriptures and become self righteous. I don't want to be one of the Pharisees who crucified Jesus. I want to be his follower, isn't the bible a road map for our OWN salvation? Am I wrong to think that when I read the bible it is teaching ME how to live MY life? I read it and think WOW God is AMAZING ~ He has shown me that every single finger I point outward, I had better turn that finger right back in, look in the mirror & make some serious changes within myself. Correct me if I'm wrong, because that's often the case in my life... but wasn't there a time in history when you had to be someone of importance & come from money to have access to reading a Bible? Good believing Christians didn't always get to read the bible, how on earth did they ever have a relationship with God if they didn't read the bible & know every scripture by heart??? I'll tell you how I think they would, they would get down on their knees & simply say, God I am NO ONE with out YOU, I NEED YOU & then they would walk in relationship to his good & perfect will for their lives. Anybody who is filled with self righteousness has got bigger problems than "homosexuality being a sin".  Are we all not guilty of sinning? Why on earth would Jesus our Lord & Savior need to be crucified for our sins if we are all perfect? It upsets me when "religious teachers" fixate on Homosexuality being a sin! Well dressed, sitting on thrones proclaiming their "education" as Theologians of the bible condemning people for being sinners (does any of this sound a tad too familiar?) Jesus did not come here to condemn the world, but to save it. There is not a day that goes by that I don't fall on my knees & thank Jesus for his saving grace. I am a SINNER, saved by HIS GRACE, not of my own doing, so that I may NEVER BOAST, it is HIM that is doing a good work in me. I thank that amazing carpenter every day for teaching me who I really am in him. Jesus came to put an end to judging & oppressing others...How can this be so hard for so many?  ~ As soon as we fill ourselves up with "knowledge" our egos take over & self righteousness wins ~ But when we fill ourselves with Jesus, we walk humbly with him ~ He was oppressed and afflicted, yet he did not open his mouth; he was led like a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before its shearers is silent, so he did not open his mouth. Isaiah 53:7

Homosexual men & woman are no more sinful by nature than heterosexual men & woman, to think otherwise is absolutely self righteous and sinful in itself!

Jesus came to free the oppressed, equality for all in Him who paid it all.

It is time for "religious teachers" to fully grasp that their own self righteousness is in fact a sin. The message of the Gospel is so crystal clear to those who believe on Jesus. We are ALL called to LOVE our neighbor & my neighbor is in fact a Homosexual. I am not here by God's devine grace to judge others, I am simply called to LOVE others. Love without His amazing grace is impossible for a self righteous heart to obtain. Love with His amazing grace has no limits, he showed us this when he said "IT IS FINISHED" on the Cross.

Blessings & Love.
Your Sister in Christ,

Tuesday, April 2, 2013


(My Little Miss saying her own prayers)

Dear Jesus, thank-you for God.
Thank-you for our families.
Thank-you for our bodies.
We be kind to Jesus and not make him hang on a Cross because that's not kind.
Sorry for the people who hurt you.
It's bad to hang people on a Cross.
I'm Sorry they made you bleed.
I won't hurt you Jesus, I will love you.
We don't put small children on a Cross, NO you would never do that because they're too little and they would fall down & hurt themself.
I love you God.
In Jesus name Amen.

The sweetness & innocence in children is just so precious...
these are the parenting moments I savor. 

Thank-you God, for my precious children.