Friday, January 31, 2014


A conversation with my ten year old;

Ty: Mom you look sore & tired, don't you want Frankie to come out now?

Me: Only God knows the day that Frankie will be born, so until then I'll be sore & tired. 

Ty: That's such a good attitude Mom, cause if it were me & I was you I'd be like "GET THIS THING OUT OF ME ALREADY!"

I can't stop laughing! 

Thursday, January 30, 2014

A Controversial Christian View:)

Abortion. Yikes! 
This is a super hot topic amongst my fellow Christian Sisters & Brothers. It's a  sensitive topic for everyone regardless of one's faith or beliefs.
I'm going to be brave right now, because swimming against the current of your "fellow believers" is NEVER easy. I love my Christian Brothers & Sisters, just as I love all of humanity. But there is a common bond that we Christians share & that is our love for Jesus. 
In having said that; I love this saying by this guy, who I know to be a Christian but know nothing else about...

I thought YES when I saw this! That's it! I love my fellow Christian Brothers & Sisters but I don't have to agree with everything they believe or do. You're right Duck Dynasty Guy:) I don't have to compromise my convictions to be compassionate! So I'm going out on a limb because that's where we bear the best fruits.

Sometimes going out on that limb can look & feel like this, but that's where God is:) Out on my own, reading my bible & loving Jesus with all of my heart. 

As a follower of Christ I am aware of the ramifications of this post and the push back that I will most likely receive, from well intentioned Christians who "fear" for my salvation and that's okay. I'm ready to step out and speak up. I don't need any bible qoutes thrown at me as to why I may be misled or misleading others on this topic, we can find the "right" bible passage for any given hot topic & justify our beliefs with them. I will stand by my prayerful convictions & continue to love you all, whether we agree or disagree on this subject. 

So let me begin;
I was 17 years old, living a life hidden in shame & alcohol making one bad choice after another. I didn't know God's saving grace or his tender love & mercies at this time in my life, but I do know now that NO matter what you're going through or facing that God can use ALL of your shame and ALL of your "mistakes" for good. Not knowing this at that time, I became pregnant at seventeen. Scared and alone I made the very heavy decision to abort my pregnancy. The night before the procedure, I was in the bathtub crying & shaking. Crying out to God I said; "please forgive me". I have only felt the warm soft blanket of God wipe away my tears a handful of times in my life and it has always been in my darkest hour. I felt an unexplainable weight lifted, restored by a sense of peace that defies logic & the most soothing voice spoken from within that said; "you are forgiven".

I believe in freedom of choice. Not killing babies. But the right to choose. A woman faced with a mountain without a mustard seed cannot tell the mountain to move. During that time in my life I didn't have a mustard seed of faith, so how on earth could I possibly tell that mountain to move? If I didn't have the choice to abort my pregnancy then my alternative was killing myself, because that's how hopeless that I felt in my life at that time. If I did not go through that unbearable pain in my life, I know that I would not be where I am today. Jesus uses ALL of it for our good. 

Condemning woman who make the painful choice to abort their pregnancy and labelling them as "baby killers" is completely and utterly not loving. I don't think anybody has the right to choose what is best for another, to me that's truly not believing that all is resting in God's hands. Let people have their free will to choose, that's between all of us and God. Have a mustard seed of faith that even when that hard choice has been made to terminate the pregnancy God will work all things together for good. 

I now have four amazingly beautiful children & one due any day now! There is not a day that passes that I'm not filled to the brim with gratitude for HIS AMAZING GRACE!

Now that I have been saved & baptized, I know that things couldn't have worked out any other way in my life. I'm where I am now because of everything I have gone through. I thank God for my freedom of choice and I owe everything to my ever faithful, forgiving, all powerful, merciful Lord & Savior!


Thursday, January 16, 2014

Right Now...

Gratitude Day 9:)

I have been feeling very heavy hearted this week:( but I am truly thankful for my roots of faith:)

If you too are feeling that the scales have tipped and life is overwhelming you in all the wrong ways, bring yourself back to what reminds you of peace & happiness. Perhaps it's reading a good book, or relaxing with a nice cup of tea? Perhaps taking a walk in nature, or just snuggling up on the couch with a warm blanket & your favourite tv show? For me the peace & comfort of God's love is what carries me through my troubled times. Always remember friends that no matter what you are facing in your life there is always a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in. Bring yourself back into the light when you've made some time for yourself to sit quietly in the dark:)

Blessings & love!

Sunday, January 12, 2014

In The Light

In the light she's found your grace. 
In the light she sees your face. 
We know she's safe & in your hands. 
Please help our hearts to understand.  
Our hearts are heavy to bare this loss,
May we turn for comfort at the cross. 
The price was paid and you are free,
Now for peace we turn to thee.
In the light she has been made new. 
In the light she is with you. 
Restore the ones who are left to weep,
Dry our tears when we can't sleep. 
Give her boys the strength to soar,
Give her husband so much more. 
Tell her mama & her sister too,
That she's in the light and she has you. 

Blessings & love:)

Friday, January 10, 2014

My Petition To God

I thought about our conversation on the phone; how sometimes it just doesn't seem fair that bad things, well awful things have to happen to good people. I prayed about this because of what Irene is going through & what my cousin is going through right now; My cousin is 35 years old & has 2 young boys ages 6 & 8 and she is in a hospice literally dying of brain cancer. I asked God to help me understand why these awful things are taking place to two beautiful good women? I asked why are helpless babies starving? Why are children being shot in schools? If you love us like you say you love us then how on earth can you allow these cruel things to happen to good people?! Well after I wiped away my tears of anguish, God filled me with a peace that really does transcend logic & spoke this into my heart; I am love. Love does not pick favourites. Love does not choose sides. You are all my children. I love you all the same. Would you willingly serve a God who is filled with judgment & favour? You will all come to the one who has made you when your time has come. You will all come home to love. I am love. I had to share this with you:) I've had such a heavy heart the past few months and I have felt that sometimes this life can just be painfully cruel and unfair! I truly felt like a heavy cloud had been lifted off of my aching heart & I will be praying that God will do the same for all of you!

Prayers & Love:)

Gratitude Day 8:)

Today I'm feeling completely overwhelmed & thankful for the miracle that is taking place within me!

Watch this amazing video clip of God's perfect creation:)

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Gratitude Day 7:)

I'm feeling grateful today that my Auntie sent us a sweet package of love & kindness in the mail:) It made our day shiny & bright!

We love you Aunt Leeann!

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

365 Days Of Gratitude #6

Day 6:)

Feeling thankful for this moment right here! I'm gonna eat while it's still warm:) 

It's the little things in life isn't it?!

What are you feeling thankful for today?

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

365 Days Of Gratitude #5

Day 5:)

Today I am feeling thankful to have a little girl in my life who brings out the little girl within me! Last night while tucking this precious gem into bed she said to me; "I will always love you forever mommy"

(Insert tears here!)

What are you feeling thankful for today?

Monday, January 6, 2014

365 Days Of Gratitude #4

Day 4!

Today I am feeling grateful that I have a good man who reads to his children:)

Sunday, January 5, 2014

365 Days Of Gratitude #3

Day 3!

I'm Grateful For My Hubby Nate:)

You wouldn't know it but just in the past two days he's worked 32 hours! He's still smiling & cooking his family pancakes:) I'm grateful that we are spending our day together as a family! These days are far & few between for us, so I will relish in our time spent together today!

What are you Thankful for today?

Saturday, January 4, 2014

365 Days Of Gratitude #2

Here's #2

I'm not putting my gratitude into any particular order, only as the feelings come to me...

It's 5:00am Saturday morning, it's minus ridiculous outside & I work in 1 hour. I need to find my gratitude in small little baby steps! I am grateful for this warm cup of quiet coffee, before I head out into the oblivion of my day:)

Friday, January 3, 2014

365 Days Of Gratitude #1

January 3rd:

I've decided to post 365 things I am grateful for this new year. 

Here's #1

This old lady right here! (Our Ruby)
She's been with Nate & I since the very beginning. She's been a loyal & dear friend to us through all of our ups & downs. She has kept our family young at heart & we will never forget just how important she is to us. A stand out Ruby memory for me is the day Nate & I took her to the beach and threw stones into the water, Ruby would crazily leap into the water, dive down & retrieve the very rock we had thrown in:) Love this girl! She's growing older day by day & her bones & muscles are showing her age. I am so grateful to have known & loved her for all of these years!